you've got twenty seconds to comply

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Thu, 31 Jan 2008 16:38:23 GMT

life is good :)

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 15:24:51 GMT

im sad because i dont know what im going to do for my birthday.
its on tuesday so ill be in gvegas...ill probably just go downtown or something and drink with ecu friends. but this weekend im coming to raleigh
but i dont know what to do to celebrate with my raleigh friends. i dont know where to have a party in raleigh since i dont live there anymore. and i dont want to throw a party at my apartment in greenville bc everyone gets to fucked up and ruins my house that i try to keep clean!!! and no one from raleigh could or would drive here on a tuesday night to come to a party at my apartment. :(

HELP ME FIND THIS SONG PLEASE :(

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 16:17:04 GMT

i heard a song yesterday on 88.1 and i remember some of the lyrics.
ive looked it up for the past half hour and im getting pissed off.
if you recognize the lyrics and know the song PLEASE HELP
lyrics:
we both know shes not coming back and i think its time we face that fact
and we both know its so strange because shes a good good good good girl and i cant change.

so if you know this song let me know it would make my day!!!

what am i supposed to do now

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 15:31:49 GMT

i started spotting so i went to the doctor
they couldnt find a heartbeat
they said this is a normal thing
i was just a few weeks along
but its still so sad
i guess it was good and bad news
neither me or ben were ready for that life
so am i just supposed to go back to the one i was living before

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Tue, 20 Nov 2007 16:22:48 GMT

i am having a baby.
i found out recently that im pregnant.
ben and i love each other and want to be together so we are keeping it.
i am very excited very scared very overwhelmed with a lot of things.
all i know is that this little life thats inside of me right this minute is a miracle.
this whole experience is going to teach us so many things and its going to be amazing.
there are some parts of this however that will not be amazing such as the fact that i had to out of nowhere quit smoking, quit drinking, quit going out late, quit the life ive been a part of for so long now and i dont want to lose the friends ive made because they are still stuck in that life. i wasnt ready for this and i think thats exactly why it happened. this is something that is forcing both ben and i away from being immature and irresponsible...and it will be for the best because where we were headed before we found out would've been a much worse situation. all in all im thankful for this life and im thankful for ben.
i just really want to know if its going to be Elijah Satar Popal, or Gabrielle Elizabeth Popal

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Wed, 10 Oct 2007 19:28:30 GMT

i think things are beginning to look up :)
i love the autumn.
i love new beginnings.
i love ben.

i miss this

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Tue, 02 Oct 2007 12:44:50 GMT

he was my everything for so long and i dont know how im going to do this :(

you've forgotten how it started close you eyes think of all the bubbles of love we made

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Mon, 01 Oct 2007 14:12:27 GMT

and your down on your knees
its too late
oh dont come crawling
and you lie by my feet
what a big mistake
i see you falling

after all the times we had and all the times we shared
everything i did for him wasnt enough. it seems to me that no matter
how you see your picture perfect idea of what you want in a relationship
and what you expect out of love from someone, its never going to be enough.
each day brings new experiences that you can learn from and take with you
or you can let them tear you down. and being the girl i am i let them tear me down. and now im in a place ive never been and feeling insecurities ive never felt. i pretty much based everything around me on ben and now i realize how unhealthy ive become and how much hes changed me after i swore up and down that he couldnt change me. now im in greenville and ive dropped all my classes except for a 50min math class. i barely work enough to feed myself and i have basically no friends. i miss raleigh. i miss my friends. i miss my old life. i dont see why at the end of the day no matter what relationship im in friendship or intimate drugs are always the cause of disaster. i used to do drugs because they made me feel something that i could enjoy without too much thought. now its like all my thoughts are wrapped around themselves and everything and everyone is stuck going in circles wanting and waiting for something that isnt real.
~i really need some advice so if you have any then comment please.

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Wed, 27 Dec 2006 05:14:41 GMT

i am totally and completely head over heels
in love with my knight in SHINING armor...
ben popal! :) x 10000000000000000

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Thu, 21 Dec 2006 15:41:10 GMT

In 2006 I...

[x] broke a promise
[x] made a new friend
[x] lied
[x] went behind your parents back
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[x] kissed in the rain
[x] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed my life
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[ ]almost died
[x] given up something important to you
[ ] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] made a change in your life
[xxx] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up till sunrise
[x] pigged out over the summer
[x] was never home on weekends
[x] got into a car accident
[x] found a person I never thought I'd become real good friends with
[x] had friends who were drifting away from me
[ ] had someone close to me die
[ ] had a high cell phone bill
[x] wasted most of my money on food
[x] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach
[ ] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[x] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x] had a wasted night
[x] became closer to a lot of people

give a stranger an unexpected smile

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Wed, 13 Dec 2006 17:49:07 GMT

im really going to try and make everything work this time.
everytime i start something new i think that its "different" and "cute"
(aww he really likes me this time it'll be special)....but
something seems better about this though. i just really
want everything to get better in my life and this is the
first step to that, well after erininas new found hobby :)
the point is im really excited and i cant wait for our
trip to amsterdam!!!

do you feel like a man when you push her around...

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Sun, 20 Aug 2006 07:04:44 GMT

...do you feel better now, she falls to the ground

so chris and i are done for good this time. and i have
the scars from being choked, and thrown into a fence to prove
it. it sucks for jessica though (the girl he slept w/ wed. night
about two hours before i got to his house and broke up with him)
becuase i had to beat the shit out of her face with a cordless
phone. needless to say his lip ring ripped and bled after i punched
him in the face for all that he's done to me. it sucks that violence
was the answer but you'd think after two months of being slapped around
i would've stuck up for myself sooner. i guess what im trying to say is
that i hope that the rest of you have good luck with your relationships and
dont have to end up with someone like i did. sucks that a whole year of my life
was given away to him for absolutly nothing.

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Sun, 16 Jul 2006 19:00:42 GMT

this has been probably the very
best summer of my entire life
all the people in it are so
amazing and so are all the
experiences.i can
honestly say that
i am the happiest
ive ever been
thank god for the end of rehab
and thank god for bringing back
erinina and also for all the
amazing nights and days that we
have all spent
together i cant
believe that its
halfway done but
its been the greatest and ill never forget
it! thanks kelsea for sharing in this
weekend drugfest im glad you came to raleigh
i cant wait for the next trip but who can?!

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Thu, 15 Jun 2006 20:33:34 GMT

whats funnier than a dead baby?

a dead baby..........................BAT!!!!

and its in erinina's driveway as we speak :0

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Thu, 01 Jun 2006 14:38:11 GMT

HA!

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Sun, 14 May 2006 01:00:16 GMT

does it make you sad when pay phones have timers to talk
and then they just cut off?...especially when u havent
heard their voice in SO long :(

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Mon, 08 May 2006 22:44:51 GMT

did i ever mention that i LOVE david logan, and his house, and his HUGE field, and his parties??? b/c if i happened to forgot then let me remind you
I FUCKING LOVE THOSE THINGS THE BEST:)!!!!! and i love aldo even though he and i both know that i shouldnt ;) HA ~lp~

who else cant stand people in your buisness?

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Thu, 27 Apr 2006 17:00:20 GMT

i would really appreciate it if you would both stop trying to make
us, more her, feel guilty for what we choose to do with our time.
it could be worse ok?... i have tried not to get angry but its getting
more and more difficult. so all i have to say to you is:

PLEASE STAY IN YOUR OWN LIVES OK?! THE TWO OF YOU HAVE ENOUGH ISSUES
WITH YOUR "RELATIONSHIP" AS YOU CALL IT TO BE WORRYING ABOUT THE
CHOICES BLENDA AND I MAKE.

p.s. i wish i was sorry to be so blunt but im not!

your tounge in my mouth trying to keep the words from coming out...

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Thu, 20 Apr 2006 14:34:32 GMT

...you didn't care to know who else may have been you before

--so basically.....I LOVE THIS BOY:)

and everything that goes along with him...i cant wait till he comes home to visit me
again....so yea i guess thats about it love~lp~

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Mon, 10 Apr 2006 14:34:02 GMT

Your Birthdate: January 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.
You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.
People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.
Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know.

Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true

Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid

Your power color: Silver

Your power symbol: Square

Your power month: April

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Tue, 28 Mar 2006 01:20:49 GMT

this summer is beginning to look a lot like last years...

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Mon, 13 Mar 2006 23:34:57 GMT

so i went in to FINALLY get my belly button pierced today and i got light green and i fucking love it!
it really didnt hurt me at all, i was just nervous about everything. but they put some music on and
it was an oldies station and while i got it done i got to sing one of my favorite Beatles songs,
come together. my mom said she thought i was really weird and blendie held my hand and covered
my eyes. i'm so glad its done it'll look so good with bathing suits so yea....YAY! and chris comes home
from his treatment facility for a four day visit on friday which makes me so happy. i love everything today.
we won nationals for cheerleading and i got all american! so yea... i hope everyone has a great week!
~lp~

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Thu, 22 Dec 2005 00:16:39 GMT

ditto....

oh well whatever nevermind

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Wed, 16 Nov 2005 14:11:09 GMT

you just dont get it do you?

i found kevin and i cant believe it :)

ncmissy18@yahoo.com — Wed, 26 Oct 2005 11:45:30 GMT

I FINALLY FOUND KEVIN SO WOW IM A HAPPY CAMPER...ON ANOTHER NOTE

its been a good week so far and IM SO EXCITED FOR THE COLDNESS OF
EACH DAY!!!!!!! so i cant wait for this weekend it's gonna be SO fun and
erinina we MUST go trick-or-treating on monday to make up for missing this
weekend b/c of soccer:( but yea i LOVED the fair (all four times) whoa i
guess i went overboard lol so yea i love you all VERY much and ill talk to
you oh so soon much love!~lp~